Chinese New Year

Hello people..

Its been a long and tiring rush for the final projects and work, I have finally emerged successful.. Chinese New Year came faster than I had expected.. So did the change of many things..


Apparently, Love is a game I cant play.. Mistakes, wrong timing, bad moves.. The worst combination for anything.. Apparently the girl I love likes someone.. She described him as a nice and caring soul who has quite a strong touch of shyness.. I foolishly believed it was me.. Until on Chinese New Year morning, after interrogating someone, I realized he loves that girl too.. Worst of all, he has been chasing her for a longer period of time and he is already so close to her.. I then realized that her description matched him nicely.. I went offline shocked and speechless.. I do not wish to fight with him over her.. I guess I am not up to that challenge.. Now, I have to take back all the feelings I have developed for her.. Sad start for Chinese New Year.. After speaking to some of my close friends about it, I have decided not to speak to her until after the exams.. After that, I shall try to establish a close friendship with her while withstanding the jealousy from watching her get together with that someone.. All I can do is wish them all the best..


After listening to music, I have shall post some song lyrics which somewhat describes my mood..



Backstreet Boys - How Did I Fall In Love With You
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Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

(CHORUS)
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

(CHORUS)
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

(BRIDGE)
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

(CHORUS)
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall, in love, with you?
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Big Bang - Haru Haru (English Translation)
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Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
Ah ah ah ah~

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

[Chorus]
Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye...

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, (so) I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

[Chorus]
Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you

[Chorus]
Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don't lie, lie
You're my heart, say goodbye
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Thats all for now, I leave you guys with a sad post.. I shall now concentrate on my final exam before JAMMING MY HEART OUT..


Enjoy~
It hurst so much to love you the way I do and then look at you and realize how much you don't care..